New Neurologist: Anxiety turns Hopeful!

I awoke aprehensive and anxious about appointment. I barely got MATAplus scheduled, I was not expecting it to cost $10.50 one-way for this Cordova office. I was feeling crappy nauseous and still slightly pained, but especially neurologically akward and irritable. I stayed up most of night reading highlighting info about right brain problems, autism, and communication disorders I've been collecting. I wanted to have words to describe what Ive been going through. I wanted to make sure I didnt waste any of the precious minutes I get with this specialist. After just 10 tense minutes with one of the supposed best neurologists in town I cried because, he was so intimidating I didn't remember anything I wanted to ask. He glanced at my chart and quickly disposed of me after confirming the same test results I've been getting since 1996...I'm not epileptic. Then proceeded to dismiss me because he only dealt with "epileptic" petit mal seizures. He offered no other recourse other return to the rheumatologists that sent me. That said I felt like I was on the defensive, as if on the way to the IRS. I was snappy with my son who seemed to be moving with too much liesure for someone escorting me today. I couldn't find my bag and the bus was already outside. But it was okay, for the first time in history they were actually 20 minutes early. Everything took a turn for the better as soon as I stepped into the Memphis heat, my favorite driver was already coming to the door to assist me. Carefully helping me along despite the fact that my son was behind me. We made it too the office early but I got worried when I realized it was 2pm an hour past 1pm appointment. Only 90 minutes before my pick up time. I notifid the receptionists, who called the nurse to get me back quickly. My first impression of the doctor was mixed. He wasn't cuddly for sure. And at first his questions were getting in the way of some of my answers while I was trying to hold on to the points I wanted to make. Soon I realized he had a method in the way he wanted me to answer. He didn't want me to express my "neurological problems" as symptoms. He wanted me to relate what I was actually having problems doing. After I gave a discourse on all the tasks that frustrate me and the lack of control over my own thoughts, he gave his initial assessment. He said the lack of evidence of any lesions on previous scans was good...no permanant damage due to lupus imflammation or stroke. He surmised that the physical damage of major lupus flare was compounded by stressful conditions and agreed that the multitude of drugs potentially created a serious biochemical imbalnce. His first impression, adult onset ADHD from what I briefly decribed. He would not guarantee any pharmaceutical cure, but drugs may help. What made me happy was that he didn't jumped to get the RX pad. He's arranging a comprehensive neuropsych evaluation he said would be much more in depth than previously done, before he even attempted to give me a DX or RX. I was done by 3pm, my son was waiting with a bag of Subway and my same driver was early and waiting to take us home. Thank God!