most severe case of balloon head I've had for weeks

I'm having a bit of a panic attack. Today, I've had the most severe case of balloon head that I've had for weeks. That's what I call the weird sensations I get in head, because I feel like helium has been injected in my brain. It feels like its floating upwards. At same time I feel like a ball and chains is pulling from the base of my skull. I'm lightheaded and heavy simultaneously. I haven't been feeling particularly stressed. I was feeling psychologically uplifted by my step aunt's invitation to visit her for Xmas. Yet since rising I've been unable to focus at all. I awoke with a lot of FM pain, I thought I'd improve mentally after ridding pain. I haven't left room or bed. I keep ping ponging from one thought to next. Fortunately, no negative most of them. Its first time in while I haven't been able to coordinate make cup of coffee. I've been stuck propped up on pillows, occasionally hitting remote controls. Unable to focus on movies, unable to stand noise on other channels. I know music would help but each time I lean over to laptop to attempt, I get lost trying to. I keep opening tabs and windows. Having new ideas, distract me from the last. I've tried to give into it, not worry about not accomplishing any tasks id planned. Trying to talk past my tendency to become panicky and obsessed with doing all the stuff running through my mind at once. I'm very spastic, having difficulty coordinating simple movements. Freeze spells, like petit mals, keep me blanking out for minutes at a time. Or I fight my eyes going shut, and suddenly feelings of overwhelming drowsiness, like narcolepsy. In past id often give in to the compulsion to perform whatever I'm obsessed over. While I'm in altered state, I'm most likely to do or say something regretful. With feelings of being lost and confused, I begin worrying that I might be forget something important. If I remember an important task,like paying a bill, then i'd feel I had to get everything done right then because I might forget altogether later.this train of thought has led to many disasters. I'm improved because I'm m more familiar with these events. I don't get so anxious. I realize I can't let crazy mind dictate any of my actions. Its been an all day struggle, back and forth dialogue in my mind. I've got queasy stomach pangs. I wished I had someone to call, hold my hand, like a hot line for neurologically/psychologically challenged. I've had conversations in my mind all day, with people I couldn't call. II thought it be good to journalize the event, then decide to address my thoughts to you. Sorry about appointment mixups;insurance changes messed up my medical transport arrangements. I thought I was kicked off tncare, but got letter saying previous letter mistake. Still, I have new provider that didn't cover MataPlus. Good news, Americare allow me to call one time for recurring appointments. Bad news, receptionist says I need to request BlueCare for West Clinic.

Fever and Anxiety Back! Home Health Comes to Rescue

I barely made it up the stairs to the security of my bed before I gave in to paralysis and another "seizurific" evening began. Pushing myself to the max mentally and physically all week gave opportunity for another urinary tract infection. Cramps, chills and sweat ... Me to get up at 4 am to discover 101 degree fever, my 4th over past few months. Good sense says . Azo tablets, cranberries and water aren't enough you must go to doctor this time for an antibiotic. A sickening weight of anxiety attack was creeping upon me as I strained to construct each step necessary in pursuit of prescription. My brain was still malfunctioning unable to think or talk or move. I would have to get through navigating menus and holding for assistance in series of phone calls. First beg my Internist's office to work in an appointment on short notice. Next hope the Insurance will overlook the 3 day notice required to cover medical transportation cost. Last of all hope MatAplus has opening left for pickup tomorrow. Worst of all would be the long wait at doctors office. then i began to worry about yesterday's unexpected $55 copay. I was so disconbobulated when I left office that was feeling totally unsure of what i was to do next appointment. What was it for? Can i afford it? Was i supposed to call insurance or the neurologist first. I had that familiar but frightening blankness. With my neurology off and "balloon head" aura upon me, i couldn't think out anything this morning. I lay in bed stuck, lost and overwhelmed by all my unfiltered thoughts tiny and great until my PT rang the doorbell breaking my "spell." Thank God, she saved my day, having nurse come to my home for urinalysis, saving me calls and trip to doctor. A walk and talk with PT help give me enough sense to postpone next tuesday's neuropsychiatrist appointment until after an appointment with my medical couselor/ psychologist.